Sunday, January 07, 2018

Good-bye, Boomer

We got Boomer as a shelter dog; given his approximate age at that time, I always considered January 1st to be his birthday.  So a few days ago he turned 13.

While his age was showing, he seemed in great health, especially for a dog of his age.  Today, though, he started having seizures.  By late afternoon he didn't know who I was, he didn't understand his surroundings, he didn't understand basic commands or the rules of the house (e.g., don't go in there); later this evening, I don't think he could even see.  The seizure tonight didn't stop, so a friend and I rushed him to a vet hospital.  Even though they understood what was going on, they gave me a few options.  

As he lie on the table I made the decision, staying with him until he was at last calm, and in the land of infinite squirrels and treats and walkies.

He's at rest, and not hurting.  I'm the one hurting now.  Except for the first month or two, I haven't lived in this house without him.  It's emptier tonight.

9 comments:

Anna A said...

My sympathy and tears.

And down the road when the time is right, may you find another dear companion.

three of clubs said...

My condolences. Sounds lonely.

Ellen K said...

It's so hard. We had to let go our Golden girl Indy. It was so hard. We were adapting her food, making her comfortable, but the last week it was obvious she was ready to go. I find myself still leaving the last bite of hamburger or steak for her and then realize she's not there. And when my husband isn't home, I miss just having her around. I'm hoping down the road we'll adopt another dog. But right now even nearly three months later, there are tears. Dogs teach us how to live-they are kind to those who are kind to them, they live in the moment and know how to play to the end. They also teach us how to exit gracefully. Give yourself time, but then adopt another pet. Pets keep us human.

Mrs. Widget said...

My Sympathies. The _are_ our best friends.

Kevin Wendland said...

sorry for the loss Darren. It's amazing how an animal can become apart of your family.

Anonymous said...

I am so very sorry,it is so hard to lose a furryface child.

Unknown said...

It is amazing how much the loss of a beloved dog can hurt. In some ways it is as much as losing a human friend/family member. We have found the best solution is to quickly get a new pup. While the new one can't replace the one you lost, the life and vitality of the young puppy brings joy and happiness to the place of darkness and loss.

I'm sorry for your loss of your beloved Boomer.

Joshua Sasmor said...

Darren, I'm so sorry. I hope that your quiet house will resound with all of Boomer's happiest moments in your mind and your heart. I'll raise a glass to you both this evening.

Darren said...

Thank you for your thoughts.

Last night when I was done doing dishes, I looked behind myself before stepping away from the sink--to make sure Boomer wasn't underfoot, so I wouldn't trip over him. This morning when the alarm went off I started towards the dining room to turn the light on and let him inside, and then I remembered.

It'll take awhile to get rid of the habits, and that's ok. When I catch myself doing something like that, I'm reminded of how important to me he was--and that makes me (bittersweet) happy.